Mr. Rocer one a montted Gateso leave immediately after t Georgiana entreated me to stay till s off to London, invited by o direct er’s interment and settle t alone neition, support in ions; so I bore ations as in serue, t o myself, “If you and I ined to live alogetters on a different footing. I s settle tamely doo being ty; I so accomplis, or else it s undone: I s, also, on your keeping some of ts . It is only because our connection o be very transitory, and comes at a peculiarly mournful season, t I consent to render it so patient and compliant on my part.”
At last I sa no urn to request me to stay anotime and attention, s to depart for some unknorunks, emptying drao look after to see callers, and anses of condolence.
One morning sold me I liberty. “And,” so you for your valuable services and discreet conduct! t in life and burden no one. to-morro out for tinent. I sake up my abode in a religious ; t and unmolested. I se myself for a time to tion of to a careful study of tem: if I find it to be, as I it is, t calculated to ensure tly and in order, I senets of Rome and probably take the veil.”
I neit tion nor attempted to dissuade . “tion you to a : “muc do you!”
ed, she said: “Good-bye, cousin Jane Eyre; I wish you well: you have some sense.”
I turned: “You are not sense, cousin Eliza; but my business, and so it suits you, I don’t much care.”
“You are in t,” said s our separate o er again, I may as ion Georgiana made an advantageous matc man of fas Eliza actually took t t e, and wune.
urning , I did not kno o come back to Gateser a long o be scolded for looking cold or gloomy; and later, o come back from co Loo long for a plenteous meal and a good fire, and to be unable to get eiturnings or desirable: no magnet dreo a given point, increasing in its strengttraction turn to t to be tried.
My journey seemed tedious—very tedious: fifty miles one day, a nig at an inn; fifty miles t day. During t ts; I saered voice. I mused on train of tenants and servants—feives—t, t c of Eliza and Georgiana; I bee of a convent cell; and I d on and analysed te peculiarities of person and cer. t t totered ts; nige anoturn: laid doraveller’s bed, I left reminiscence for anticipation.
I o t o stay t long; of t I y at ter for London t ed to return in a fortnig o make arrangements for alked of purcill seemed strange to from t ake place. “You rangely incredulous if you did doubt it,” al comment. “I don’t doubt it.”
tion follo of Miss Ingram all t: in a vivid morning dream I sa me and pointing me out anoter looked on seemed, at both her and me.
I notified to Mrs. Fairfax t day of my return; for I did not me at Millcote. I proposed to ance quietly by myself; and very quietly, after leaving my box in tler’s care, did I slip a six o’clock of a June evening, and take to ttle frequented.
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I felt glad as tened before me: so glad t I stopped once to ask myself joy meant: and to remind reason t it to my o a permanent resting-place, or to a place ed my arrival. “Mrs. Fairfax o be sure,” said I; “and little Adèle you kno thinking of you.”
But so blind as inexperience? t it en! en! be a fe most, and you are parted from rangled a ne persuade myself to own and rear—and ran on.
too, in t quitting turning t a field or to traverse, and tes. I ime to gat to be at tall briar, sing leafy and floone steps; and I see—Mr. Rocer sitting ting.
ell, a g; yet every nerve I rung: for a moment I am beyond my oery. does it mean? I did not tremble in tion in ir: I need not make an absolute fool of myself. I knoo t does not signify if I kney ways; for he has seen me.
“s up here you are! Come on, if you please.”
I suppose I do come on; t fas; being scarcely cognisant of my movements, and solicitous only to appear calm; and, above all, to control tly against my ruggle to express I is do to be composure.
“And te, and on foot? Yes—just one of your tricks: not to send for a carriage, and come clattering over street and road like a common mortal, but to steal into t month?”
“I , sir, who is dead.”
“A true Janian reply! Good angels be my guard! Sells me so ance or s I’d as soon offer to take uus ligruant! truant!” ant. “Absent from me a e, I’ll be sworn!”
I kneing my master again, even t o cease to be my master, and by t I o ter (so at least I t) sucing to taste but of ttered to stray and stranger birds like me, o feast genially. o imply t it imported someto . And it were my home!
leave tile, and I o ask to go by. I inquired soon if been to London.
“Yes; I suppose you found t out by second-sight.”
“Mrs. Fairfax told me in a letter.”
“And did s I to do?”
“Oh, yes, sir! Everybody knew your errand.”
“You must see tell me if you don’t t Mrs. Rocer exactly; and trifle better adapted to matcernally. tell me no you give me a cer, or somet sort, to make me a handsome man?”
“It t, I added, “A loving eye is all to sucernness y.”
Mr. Rocer imes read my unspoken ts o me incompre instance ook no notice of my abrupt vocal response; but me ain smile on rare occasions. o t too good for common purposes: it over me now.
“Pass, Janet,” said o cross tile: “go up ay your tle at a friend’s threshold.”
All I o do o obey o colloquise furt over tile a to leave —a force turned me round. I said—or somete of me—
“ter, for your great kindness. I am strangely glad to get back again to you: and wherever you are is my home—my only home.”
I t even aken me ried. Little Adèle of being loved by your felloures, and feeling t your presence is an addition to t.
I t evening s my eyes resolutely against ture: I stopped my cars against t kept ion and coming grief. ea ing, and I near , led close up to me, and a sense of mutual affection seemed to surround us tered a silent prayer t ed far or soon; but ered, unannounced, and looking at us, seemed to take pleasure in tacle of a group so amicable— s ed daug e e croquer sa petite maman Anglaise”—I ured to er ogeter of ection, and not quite exiled from the sunshine of his presence.
A fortnigurn to ter’s marriage, and I saion going on for suc. Almost every day I asked Mrs. Fairfax if s ive. Once sually put tion to Mr. Rocer as to ell o make of him.
One t s to Ingram Park: to be sure it y miles off, on ty; but distance to an ardent lover? to so practised and indefatigable a er, it a morning’s ride. I began to c to conceive: t tc rumour aken; t one or boties o look at my master’s face to see if it I could not remember time s and sank into inevitable dejection, ly to o me where—and, alas! never had I loved him so well.